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October 25, 2005

Thoughts on performance and internet intersection of personal crisis

The paper I've been working on has been near torturous to write, and that has been bothering me.  It's not a long paper, in fact it's rather short.  It's not for submission, rather it is for presentation and has already been accepted via abstract as part of a panel.  And it is on a topic I find very interesting that alone should make it easy to pull together.  So why has it been so hard to write?

It hit me this morning as I was weeding my way through chapters in Bial's The Performance Studies Reader, exactly what is tripping me up.  You see a few weeks ago Terri Senft posted on performance studies and internet research, in it she made the following observations:

It's interesting to me that performance studies is now entering its third decade as a discipline and most performance-based questions posed by Internet researchers turn on performance of identity. Sometimes someone brings up presence, but only as something to be managed. Also: Erving Goffman is great, but the field really has moved on from Performance of Self in Everyday Life. Performance theorists need to step up and start educating people outside our field about how to think about issues of presence, absence, liveness, words that do, images that speak, ethics of engagement beyond informed consent. I think I'm going to talk to some friends about proposing a new sort of performance panel at AoIR next year.

I read her comments and they immediately resonated with me.  You know it was one of those moments that your mental cheerleaders are doing their thing "That's / the work / you want / to be doing" they are chanting complete with pompoms and a lunge at the end.  So I copied the syllabus of reading she recommended and thought about when I would get time to read all of it...not this year for sure.  And then I went on with what I was doing.

But then, of course, it didn't take long for what I was doing to collide with what I was percolating in the back of my brain.  How do I take my Goffmanian based view of personal performance and transcend it into something deeper something more meaningful that sheds new light on the people and the spaces within my research.  That's my crisis of faith at the moment...crisis because I don't know as much about the topic(s), as though none of this is contested, of performance studies...crisis because I have a paper to finish and I'm realizing that no matter what, I am simply not going to like it...crisis because I need to find a way to immerse myself in reading before I do my diss proposal...crisis because life goes on while everything else is happening and kinda mucks up the best laid academic plans.

I decided to exorcise the demons by writing a blog post and admitting, as my grandmother would say "to god and everybody" that I am struggling with this one.  Though you know I do think struggle is good...very good in fact.  Struggle to me is the sign that I am working outside my comfort-zone, that I am trying something new and slightly dangerous, and that I can fail or I can win but in either case the result will be complete and it will be a definite growth experience.

So if you are coming to NCA drop by my panel on Sunday can watch me struggle with this in 3D and maybe give me a idea that will help solidify where this path is beginning to take me.

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Bial, Henry (ed.) (2004). The Performance Studies Reader. London: Routledge.

Posted by prolurkr at October 25, 2005 01:26 PM

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